Seriously I did not realize that my blog has been inactive for two good months. Well, not really two good months for me. I am super super busy and depressed for those months. How can I really explain in words? Its the bad mood swing and insecurity about every little thing. I don't know the root problem but I know something is missing. Im piled up with so much stuff that I am feeling lost sometimes. There's not light ahead and you just keep walking forward. I may appear to be cheery but its not the real Michelle. I am dragged down with those alien subjects which I cant manage at all. I need SOS! its not about just a PASS. I cant let these two subjects cause my effort down the drain. damn it! FMLM! totally feel like a useless freak. No matter how much comforting food I ate, does not help. The one way is to go for a holiday! I need a holiday!! Will someone please take me far far away? I dislike the hectic pace here. Not about the great escape, its freedom I am talking about. Freedom and no commitment. Definitely not now. Yes, I do want a happy family in future. I feel so happy for my cousin who builds his little family. I do envy him. The life of parenthood often run across my mind when everyone around me is getting married and pregnant. I love babies. I love children. I wish to see little-michelle and little-stanley running around the garden. haha see, I am imagining again. I hope I can hold on to the day but for now I need to persevere.
good times...
I adore the Minnie Mouse cake for my niece. so lovely.
